Why aren’t things happening my way and in my timing? Now seems like the perfect time? Have I been forgotten? I DON’T UNDERSTAND!!
Have you ever said these things to yourself, to someone else or maybe even God himself…?? I know I have; very recently in fact. I’ve even at times felt as though I'm not being heard at all, but in all reality God is saying…”Yep, got it. I heard you the first time you asked!” Haha! He knows and He cares about everything little part of us. When things just aren’t falling into place it’s hard to get your flesh and spirit on the same page; are they ever?! You know in your spirit what’s right; who’s really in control and that His way will far surpass yours, but that darn flesh and its emotions always seem to get in the way and it definitely takes the Holy Spirit’s guidance and peace to bring those emotions under the obedience of the Word of God. (2 Corinthians 10:5)
Emotions are a funny thing. It still amazes me how frequently they come and go. So many times as Christians when we begin to feel those emotions that aren’t necessarily popular like; grief, anger, sadness, loneliness…etc, we begin to condemn ourselves, and the devil is right there ever so eager to assist in the condemnation. “Look at you! You’re supposed to be a Christian.” “Don’t you have any faith?!” “Where’s your trust in God?!” But you know what, being followers of Christ does not cancel out our humanity. We still experience all those crazy emotions that come with the twists and turns of life and the bible says in Ecclesiastes 3:1 “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven….”
What sets us apart is the way we react to those emotions. Do you let the anger consume you or do you hand it over to God and embrace forgiveness? Do you fall into a deep depression because of grief and sadness or do you allow God to give you beauty for ashes? Experiencing those emotions is not wrong or a lack of faith, it’s what you do with them that matters.
There are things going on in my life right now that I do not understand one bit and I’ve been hashing things out with God, but by going to him with my hurts and fears I allow him to send his Holy Spirit to reassure and comfort me. God can handle our honesty, so tell him the truth about where you’re at. Besides, he already knows.